03.30.05

brain fried

Posted in grad school at 12:20 am by

You know that feeling you get when you’ve just mentally exerted yourself past all safe standards for thinking? I’ve got that feeling. I’m not sure how you all should feel that what I do when I just need to turn my brain off is blog. Let’s just hope this is isn’t what happens unconciously most of the time (me blogging without thinking.)

So, anyhow, I’m spent. Unfortunately, I’ve got about another 25 or so pages of manuscript to crank out by next Thursday. Needless to say, I’ll be busy for the next week / weekend. I’m not sure I’ll be good for much during that time (though if anybody is looking for a treatise on the Heuristic-Systematic Model of Social Information Processing…I could probably help you out.)

I think that I’m in what I’ll likely look back at as one of the defining moments of graduate school. One of those moments I’ll think of (maybe even fondly) and remember, “Wow, I really kicked ass and took names on those projects.” Of course, any time you have the propensity to ‘kick ass and take names’ you also have the propensity to fall flat on your ass while your classmates call you names (oh, the horrible childhood memories of my junior high classmates calling me ‘Bran-dumb’…those fuckers…I never really got over that.)

Anyway, this is probably one of those defining moments for me. And, like I was saying, in any defining moment there is a do or die mentality. I’ve found that I go into survival mode. It’s kind of like academic hibernation. Most of my body functions shut down (I haven’t had a good BM in days), I sleep less, I eat less, and (this is the kicker) I actually use my time efficiently. I am in gear.

Unfortunately, this being ‘in gear’ has some negative ramifications. I’m not very nice right now, for one. It probably sucks to be my wife during this time–I’m working on making it suck less to be my wife, but it probably isn’t really pleasant right now. I guess, the downside is really that I get pretty anti-social. I think I get more sensitive too, any little thing can send me into spirals of self doubt.

Shit. Wasn’t that last paragraph cheery? Yeah, I thought so.

I guess there’s no real moral to this blog entry. It doesn’t really fit with the theme of this blog–though, I guess I did swear; there must be some redeeming value, then.

I don’t know. It’s just one of those days, I guess. Hopefully, I get some manuscript nailed down tomorrow and I emerge a happier bad Christian on the other side of the sunrise.

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brain fried

Posted in grad school at 12:20 am by

You know that feeling you get when you’ve just mentally exerted yourself past all safe standards for thinking? I’ve got that feeling. I’m not sure how you all should feel that what I do when I just need to turn my brain off is blog. Let’s just hope this is isn’t what happens unconciously most of the time (me blogging without thinking.)

So, anyhow, I’m spent. Unfortunately, I’ve got about another 25 or so pages of manuscript to crank out by next Thursday. Needless to say, I’ll be busy for the next week / weekend. I’m not sure I’ll be good for much during that time (though if anybody is looking for a treatise on the Heuristic-Systematic Model of Social Information Processing…I could probably help you out.)

I think that I’m in what I’ll likely look back at as one of the defining moments of graduate school. One of those moments I’ll think of (maybe even fondly) and remember, “Wow, I really kicked ass and took names on those projects.” Of course, any time you have the propensity to ‘kick ass and take names’ you also have the propensity to fall flat on your ass while your classmates call you names (oh, the horrible childhood memories of my junior high classmates calling me ‘Bran-dumb’…those fuckers…I never really got over that.)

Anyway, this is probably one of those defining moments for me. And, like I was saying, in any defining moment there is a do or die mentality. I’ve found that I go into survival mode. It’s kind of like academic hibernation. Most of my body functions shut down (I haven’t had a good BM in days), I sleep less, I eat less, and (this is the kicker) I actually use my time efficiently. I am in gear.

Unfortunately, this being ‘in gear’ has some negative ramifications. I’m not very nice right now, for one. It probably sucks to be my wife during this time–I’m working on making it suck less to be my wife, but it probably isn’t really pleasant right now. I guess, the downside is really that I get pretty anti-social. I think I get more sensitive too, any little thing can send me into spirals of self doubt.

Shit. Wasn’t that last paragraph cheery? Yeah, I thought so.

I guess there’s no real moral to this blog entry. It doesn’t really fit with the theme of this blog–though, I guess I did swear; there must be some redeeming value, then.

I don’t know. It’s just one of those days, I guess. Hopefully, I get some manuscript nailed down tomorrow and I emerge a happier bad Christian on the other side of the sunrise.

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